Full-Blown Agony: My Fight With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain erupted behind my right eye. Then came quick jolts, similar to electric shocks. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort behind a single eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Matthew Sampson
Matthew Sampson

Maya Chen is a wellness coach and lifestyle writer passionate about helping others achieve balance and vitality through practical, evidence-based strategies.